So let me say first how this came into being.  As I was woke I was feeling really heavy and sad, which didn't fit at all where I have been emotionally lately, and then I recalled a dream I'd had, and realized that is where the sadness came.  Somewhere in this sleep, dream, wake state an idea came into being.  Not really an idea, but instructions.  It was absolutely clear, "start a blog and call it Greater Becoming."  Ugh, start a blog?  I've done that.  It was a blog about my life as a new mother.  It was a fun way to show off my son (I was so proud) and all the things we did together and include my big ideas and opinions on things.  I soon realized I didn't have time to devote to writing it the way I'd like, and I had other things I was learning about that I wanted to share, but my father was reading and he didn't agree or had opinions I wished he didn't share (there is more to this).  I had all of 10 readers, maybe, anyway, so I gave it up.  At nearly the same time I gave up a photography blog I had started.  This is a theme with me, going somewhere, beginning something and quitting when I before I am seen or noticed, when really all I want is to be seen. 

So this idea that came to me upon waking, to start a blog was a little irritating.  Something I'd drag my feet over.  But I didn't, it felt a little like a heart stirring.  So I sat down to do it.  But, now I have two little boys, 7 and 3, that I homeschool.  In the midst of this heart stirring, heavy, sleepy state my boys are jumping on my bed, asking for breakfast, my older one tells me he wants to teach the first lesson today and he's eager to get started, and all I want to do is collect my thoughts and be alone.  This of course is impossible.  So amidst the interruptions and what felt like chaos, I wrote down my dream (but not what I felt it symbolized, still working that out), and tried out my blog title on blogger and it was available and made my first post.  This is how I have to do things.  With constant interruption and distraction.  It's really hard for me, I long for hours, days, weeks even of time alone to be with my thoughts.  Yes, I've just realized I am an introvert.  But we can't learn in a vacuum.  Life is messy.  It's all about incorporating what we've learned into our everyday moments.  I think this might be what this blog will be about.  I don't know where this will go.  But here I am showing up and learning to be vulnerable.